of lullabies and silver linings.

i spent a day without you today,
perhaps the first of so many yet to come,
an entire day wasted only with a series of manufactured laughs and half hearted sighs,
each following minute only deepens my pondering of my significance to you.

tell me,
do you even know that i'm here?
no, don't answer that..

but dear,
let the masses know, 
that for each and every day i missed without you,
i whispered to the lonely halls in my mind,
unbroken messages and promises to guide me through the days.

if the odds finally favor me,
then maybe we can trully see what our future holds,
for the two of us.

but for now,
when my body cannot be with you,
at the very least,
my spirit will always be.